WHEN YOU’RE ALONE, UNWANTED, AND WONDERING IF BREATHING IS EVEN WORTH IT

Oh, the sweet joy of feeling completely unwanted, unappreciated, and, frankly, like the world would be better off if you just didn’t exist. Let’s talk about that, shall we? Because, honestly, I experience that feeling every single day. And no, I’m not exaggerating—every day, without fail. I sit and wonder, What’s the point? Why keep drawing breath if it feels like I’m a burden to the people around me? I mean, seriously, feeling unwanted is practically on par with nails on a chalkboard. But it’s my reality, and let’s face it, no one’s handing out “Best Supportive Friend” awards anytime soon.

But hey, guess what? It’s not even that simple. It’s complicated. I’ve got a little thing called irrational thoughts thanks to years of repeated trauma. So now, I don’t just feel unwanted by a couple of people; I feel like I’m a burden to EVERYONE. Yep, every single person. And yes, it gets debilitating. I can’t even be around people without my anxiety making me feel like I’m walking into a room full of judgmental stares. It's exhausting. But you know what? I keep fighting. Because one day, I’m going to love myself enough that other people’s love will just be a bonus. So here’s hoping, right? 🙏

But let’s talk about people who act like they’ve got water flowing through their veins instead of blood. The ones who won’t appreciate anything you do, no matter how hard you try. It’s like you’re doing everything possible to show them you care, and they just look at you like you’re an inconvenience. This is why I often prefer staying alone. I mean, at least in solitude, I don’t have to worry about anyone’s water-venous indifference ruining my day. Sometimes, I think, Hey, maybe I’d like a good, long conversation, you know, about something that doesn't involve what’s in my pants. Is that too much to ask for?

But here’s the silver lining (I know, shocking, right?): The world is changing. And not just any change—good change. Trust me, it's all coming together, even if it doesn’t seem like it now. You might feel stuck in your own version of emotional limbo, but I swear, eventually, you'll find your tribe. Maybe you don’t know what that looks like yet, but I’m pretty confident that someone out there is just as concerned for you as you are for them. So hang in there.

And hey, I get it. Communication sucks. We’ve all been there. It’s like trying to communicate with someone who’s living in a different universe. It’s frustrating. But here’s the thing: You can make it work. If you sit down, have an honest conversation, and set some boundaries, things can improve. Sometimes, you just have to say, “Hey, can we talk for a second?” And if they’re too busy to listen, that’s cool—but they need to let you know. Mutual communication. It’s not that hard, people.

Yet, in the end, we all know how it goes. You start out in relationships all excited to spill your heart out. Everything is up for discussion. But somewhere down the line, suddenly, you’re terrified to disturb your partner with your insignificant emotions. Really? That’s where we’re at? No one wants to be the one always reaching out. But here's the kicker: If you don’t make the effort to communicate, things only get worse.

And then you get to the point where you're like, “Am I supposed to just stay in this, waiting for things to change? Or is my happiness worth more than just surviving?” Because that’s the decision you have to make. Do you want to stay in a relationship, even if it means being stuck in emotional purgatory? Or do you want to take control of your own happiness and make the tough call? 

At the end of the day, we’re all just here once—just one shot at this life. So maybe it’s time to ask yourself: Do you want to survive or do you want to live?

Don’t wait until you're suffocating in the “just staying together for the sake of it” mentality. Make the choice. Your happiness is worth it.🖖😉🎈